Story... Tell me yours and i'll tell you mine. Skin scars, flesh wounds and bleeding hearts. Everyone has his own, very particular story. And so do us.
Life is a journey, they say. Yes. But also an auto learning process where every scar is different.
We discussed obstacles, not how to overcome them, I know, we didn't have much time.
("That you will allow obstacles/complications to take over")
But in the end, what is left from what was said, felt? Very little, and very much, and a never ending learning process.
Time is a tricky thing, you know? Time will heal us, 'till the next scar, in a endless motion, as time has no dimension.
Giving and taking, is what all this is about. And then life comes along and crushes you down and the turmoil takes over. The fear. The insecurity.
Pure love and a cottage by the sea are no longer enough. Life is out there preying on people like you, like me, with all its variables, ready to "eat you out".
Even though I tried, was too late. You left just when I tried to do so. Just tried, but couldn't.
It was both a scream for help and a way to protect you. But then you left for real. How is this even possible, I don't know. Can't get my head around it just yet. You, who feared I was allowing obstacles taking over, now you feel the weight of life crushing you in the same way as I did. Down to hearth, considering all the variables. And you just left. And is that sense of loss that is outrageously devastating.
Is going to take me some time to deal with this. The problem is, I believed. Really did. But people are different, and love weighs differently to each one of us. Hands up, as you managed to outgrown your scars while I didn't. You know how to protect yourself, and I don't. But even if I was able to do so, was impossible to protect myself from you. The way you just got in was so brutal, there was nothing I could do to stop it. And quite frankly? I not even tried, or wanted to. Was a hell of an emotional journey!
("What unseen powers you have, to break inside me like this")
("And I let you... I let you, I welcomed you, let you sleep in my heart, shared my soul")
You are a brave woman. A truly special woman. As you will carry on, with just a frail memory or no memory at all, I will fight my way through the wreck i'm in to live another day, another life.
I stole your heart and your soul and will carry them with me on my journey, as you left but I didn't let you go. And when I finally do, that memory will stay, as in the song. And this will became my story.
("How can you make me feel so euphoric and devastated at the same time?")
With all my love,
N.
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